I'll get straight to the point. Lately, I know I've said a few things on the wiki of which I am not proud of. I don't believe acting stuck up, being rude to other users and falsely accusing other users is how one should go about the wiki. I know I've done just that.
I'll be honest. Sometimes I feel burnt out being on the wiki. I'm sure others can relate and say they've felt this way too. Some users respond to this feeling in different ways and they have different ways of dealing with it. Sadly, it's reality that users are going to feel this way having spent a long time on any wiki to be precise. As some of you may have guessed, this isn't the first time I've felt this way nor am I the first user to feel this way and I doubt I will be the last. I, like anybody else here, try to remain calm at all times but sometimes, we all let our personal thoughts get in the way, myself included.
A lot of the things I said, specifically in a certain forum that's up at the moment, were not appropriate. I accept and understand that, which has led to this blog post. I'm probably not the only user who will say things they didn't mean, but that doesn't mean I shouldn't try to make amends. I know I've lashed out at specific users and I can't help but feel remorseful for this, as I probably should. I don't resent anybody here as individuals and I do try to get along with everybody as best as I can. I try to treat things on-wiki as I would irl and while I do manage to keep my on and off-wiki feelings separated from each other, it doesn't give me any excuses to do anything differently. Everybody here is likely a different person offline than online and while I may have been completely level-headed and civil off the wiki, I can't say the same about how I've been lately on-wiki and I know I can't accept that.
The reason I'm presenting this in the form of a blog is because I feel there is a lot to be said and I do hope somebody can spare a few minutes to give this a read. I do feel that distancing myself a little bit from the wiki would help, as it's worked before, and all I really want to do now is put all of this in the past.
So to wrap up,
I'm sorry for my recent attitude and for being rude, both to other users and in general.